Thank you all 10 readers! So, I got four new readers in two days which means a lot since this is a really small blog. That might be the only happy thing in my day. This morning started fantastically; I was an hour late from school and I got a horrible anxiety attack. School is the most important to me at this time (you might notice it from my average of the certificate which was 9.2, the best is 10) and I'm sort of a perfectionist, so even a little delay will destroy my day. After I got to school I went to see our school psychologist. He thinks that I really need help for depression. This wasn't a huge surprise for me since he has been really worried about me. I got an anxiety attack again because this psychologist is, in my oppinion, really horrible. Otherwise everything went well at school, I drew some Big bang pictures in Swedish lesson ^^
Koulun jälkeen kävin kaupungilla poikaystäväni sekä kahden ystäväni kanssa. Jouduin kuitenkin lähtemään tunnin yhdessäolon jälkeen, koska sain taas aivan kamalan itku-ahdistuskohtauksen. Taisi johtua taas siitä, että en saanut psykologia mielestäni. Tuntui todella kamalalta katsoa rakkaani huolestunutta ilmettä ja vieläkin tekee hieman pahaa ajatella, että lähdin noin vain ._.
After school I went to city centrum with my boyfriend and two of my friends. However I had to leave after an hour because I got an awful anxiety attack again and I cried so much. I think the reason was the psychologist who I couldn't get out of my head. It felt really terrible to see my love's worried face. I still feel bad for leaving so suddenly ._.
Nyt olen vain kuunnellut paljon tyttöbändejä, f(x)ää enimmäkseen, mutta on tässä tultu kuultua mm. Secret:ä, SNSD:a, After School:a ja Hyunaa. Hyvää illanjatkoa kaikille~
Now I have just listened to a lot of girl groups, mostly f(x) but also some Secret, SNSD, After School and Hyuna. Have a good evening~
~ Hende, Her mood is the Lucifer. Grr~